1957 Baptism and Murder. Paul begins construction work
at 15, Andrew falls, fractures vertebra, diminished parental role; Jacob. S.
and Elizabeth Miller; the murder of Paul Coblentz May 20; instruction class and baptism by Harry
Stutzman; Grandma Martha Miller’s death in April; Grade 8 teacher Henry Troyer;
Principal Roy Stallman, the English language.
Our family friend, the poet Lorie
Gooding wrote a prayer poem for the new year 1957 which ended with the stanza:
Give to us, Lord, true courage
To serve thee without any fear;
To honor and love and adore Thee
All the days of this glad New
Year.
The glad year had its share of
courage and fear. We’ll begin with the courage it took for my oldest brother
Paul at age 15 to start working for Jacob S. Miller in carpentry and home
building. On one level Paul was simply honoring cultural expectations of a
growing Amish Mennonite family with seven children now needing extra cash and
income. In addition, our community expected that a youth apprentice and work at
a useful trade as soon as possible. But even in this context, it was
considerable effort for a youth of modest physical size and strength to get up at
six in the morning and do outside carpentry work, what we called roughing up
houses. And Paul was too young for an Ohio driver’s license, so that summer it
became a mother and son project.
Mattie would drive the car for about eight
miles to Mt. Hope in order for Paul to catch a ride with Jacob Miller’s
carpentry crew, and then she would go pick him up in the evenings. I sometimes
went along and remember the early fog as my mother would drive along slowly.
But most of the time, I stayed at home milking the cows and doing the chores;
this role had now fallen to me easily because I enjoyed working with the animals.
Paul’s step outside the family
farm established a pattern and relationship with Jacob S. Miller which all of
us brothers Paul, Roy and I would follow for the next decade. My younger
brother David also worked for Jake briefly but not near as long as the rest of
us did. Paul’s influence was a pattern which we would follow later on anything
from buying a car to college choice, vocations, money management, investments
or choosing our mates.
If this almost father-like
concern for younger siblings and the rest of the family is typical for eldest
brothers, I think the role may also have sought out Paul because of some
unhappy events in my father’s life. During these years, Andrew vacated his
paternal seat, and I’ll describe how this came about. During the summer my
father became immobilized by a roofing accident, and lost his ability to work.
For the first time we had no income beyond the benevolence of our 80- acre farm,
meaning plenty to eat but not much cash. During all of our farming years, my
father had always worked outside the farm for cash income whether it was in
roofing, spouting, laying bricks or blocks, or selling and installing iron
railings for porches and steps.
Then one evening the news came that Andrew had
touched the TV antennae of Waive and Vera Boyd’s house, been electrocuted by a
shock and had fallen to the ground below. I remember visiting my father in the
Pomerene Hospital in Millersburg with his body in traction, attached and pulled
by cables and pulleys from the bed posts; he had fractured some vertebrae in
his back when he fell. When he came home from the hospital he wore a body cast
around his midsection and trunk. I remember it was a warm summer, and we had a
wooden back scratcher with which we children used to give him some relief from
the itchiness.
Now my father, who I had believed
could do anything, could do nothing. Meanwhile, Paul worked outside the home in providing financial support for the family; Roy was good with the tractor, farm machinery, crop farming, and fixing
mechanical things around the house and farm; and I took care of the small dairy. Our mother
Mattie provided much of the emotional support for the children and managed the finances. But my father
did not only lose physical strength, but he also was diminishing his mental and
rational resources while seeking increasing emotional help from unseen spirits.
During this time, Andrew moved from a fairly high volitional and discipleship
type of Christianity to a mystical and paraphysical Christian religion which
was unusual to our family and community. We had enclosed the front porch with
windows which he turned into an office and bedroom (with blinds pulled), and during
that warm summer Andrew communed with the spirits speaking in unknown tongues
(glossalalia) and seeking divine healing for his back.
Christianity is always a mixture
of the human and the transcendent, the unseen and the rational ethical commitments
with various groups emphasizing one or the other. Both of these elements are in
the Biblical stories and certainly both were in the Amish Mennonite community. By
most measures, however, our Anabaptist communities weighed in the direction of
the rational and commitment of the will and community. “Work out your own salvation
with fear and trembling,” we quoted the Apostle. I know the rest of the text
also talks of God working in and through us, but we began with our human effort.
The degree to which my father moved to a mystical and Pentecostal Christianity
was simply a direction which his children and his wife Mattie could not follow. One might suppose that given his
physical condition and no additional medical help in sight, it is quite
understandable. Why not appeal to supernatural sources, and there is a healing
stream in the Scriptures and Christian history. Anyway, Andrew disappeared,
often not showing up for meals and shut up in a dark room, comforted by angels
and rebuking demons. He got lots of literature from free-lance evangelists in
Tulsa, Oklahoma and Waco Texas.
I’m not sure whether our father
rupturing his vertebrae was the only element in his vacating his paternal chair,
but I do know that by the early sixties, he had disappeared for me. And a number of stand-ins seemed ready to
pick up on his leadership role. There was the eldest son Paul who seemed
emotionally ready and level-headed quite beyond his years. Paul would leave high school at age sixteen
that winter and worked full-time with Jacob Miller and Clarence Summers, hence
a key provider for our family during those lean years. And brother Roy did the
same a summer later. I think later in life some of us (including our poor bewildered
spouses) may have outgrown and even resented Paul’s leadership, irrespective of
how functionally he came to the role. In due time most of us either came to terms
with this arrangement, with mixtures of appreciation, accommodation, humor and
even rejection.
But looking back after five decades, I don’t think Paul sought
this role as much as having it thrust upon him at an early age. And he was not
the only one who had additional parent roles given to them. There was my mother
Mattie who was the stable leader of home and farm during Andrew’s absence; her
stature and influence greatly increased. And there was our employer Jacob S.
Miller.
Jacob S. and Elizabeth Miller of Mt.
Hope were already family friends to my parents before we went to work with Jake
and Clarence Summers who was the other partner in home construction. Clarence
lived in Kidron and focused on the financial and brick and block (masonry) part
of the projects and Jake with more of the carpentry. Jake was a hard worker,
somewhat small in stature, but strong in muscle and determination. He was soft
spoken and generous in attitude with his employees whether we were fast or slow
or how much we differed from him.
He went to bed early, ate an early
breakfast and passed on lunch, working right through it, but he had no such
expectations of any of the rest of us. Jake was punctual, devout, and totally
honest. The only time we ever questioned his integrity was when he told us that
he and Elizabeth only had sex three times in their lives—for their three
children Dean, Ann, and Gary. His father was Stephen and because Jacob was a
common name, many people knew him primarily as Steffy’s Jake. He was an unusual
employer and friend to our family, and we all benefitted from our association
with him. I also enjoyed his wife Elizabeth, a tall, direct plain-spoken woman,
totally loyal to Jake, her family and the Mennonites. Her only outside loves were
for the evangelist Billy Graham and his singer George Beverly Shea.
The big fears in Lorie Gooding’s glad
year were the nights after Paul Coblentz was murdered. One morning when Paul
and Mattie went to Mt. Hope, they saw lots of sheriff cars parked near the Mose
Coblentz farmhouse between Benton and Mt. Hope. Later that day, word soon
spread of two young men having wrecked a stolen pick-up truck along Route 241;
the two men struck out on foot across the field with weapons and saw light in the
Coblentz window; the family was still up at about ten, getting ready for threshing
wheat the following day. The two men tried to rob Paul and Dora Coblentz who
lived in a basement house near their parents. Dora hovered over their 17-month
old child while Paul tried to escape seeking help. He was shot in the head
twice at close range and killed near the doorway.
Several nights later we went to
the Mose Coblentz place for the wake. A large crowd had gathered around the
house, and cars and buggies were parked all along the lane and roads. It was
dark and there were only gas lanterns, and I remember following my parents,
shaking hands with people in the front room and then ushered into a back room
where the dead body lay in an open coffin for viewing with only the white face
revealed by the lantern’s light. Visiting the Coblentz family was sad, but fear
was my main emotion in the nights that followed before we knew what had
happened to the men who had killed Paul Coblentz.
Were these men still hiding
somewhere near one of our farms? Even after Eugene Peters and Michael Doumoulin
were apprehended in an Illinois hunting cabin, the fear remained for a
twelve-year old. This was the first murder I was aware of in Holmes County, and
it became a summer of fear. I would look
out the upstairs window, and I could not sleep, wondering if some wandering
intruders may show up at our farm.
Peters and Doumoulin were brought
back to the Holmes County jail, and in the trial Peters was convicted and
sentenced to die in the electric chair; Doumoulin sentenced to life in prison.
About this same time, our Holmesville School which sometimes showed movies
during the noon hour showed a black and white documentary of the Ohio State Penitentiary
and the electric chair. A local Mennonite pastor Paul Hummel took Amish
ministers and Coblentz family members to visit Peters in the prison, and the
Amish and Mennonites sent letters to the governor pleading that he give the
condemned man clemency which he did. Coblentz told Peters that he hoped God
would forgive him. Later the case was lifted up for the nonresistance of the
Amish and Mennonites in not wanting the state to kill a man in their name.
In September I took a big step in
the Christian life. I was baptized along with brothers Paul and Roy by Bishop
Harry Stutzman at Maple Grove Mission; actually there were eight of us Millers
from three families. Freeman (1944
- 1964) and Dorothy (1943 - 1999), both now
gone to their eternal reward, were children of Abe and Katie Miller of Berlin.
Dorothy married David Yoder and, as we used to say, served on the mission field
with Wycliffe Translators in Ecuador. This had to be one of the choicest mission
assignments what with all of the faithful having read the book Through Gates of Splendor, the story of
the five American young people who lost their lives trying to establish contact
with the native Ecuadorians, the Waorani people, then
known to us as the Auca Indians. I must have heard this missionary story
a thousand times in sermons and talks.
Sadly, Freeman was hugely overweight,
had blood clots, and died young. Freeman’s death took on esoteric interest in
our community because at the time of his death a Pentecostal movement was emerging
in Berlin (sometimes called the Johnny Schrock church). Oral tradition had some
of these Pentecostals going to Freeman’s grave site and were trying to raise him
from the dead.
Three other members of the
baptismal class were the children of Eli J. Millers who lived near Beechville:
Monroe, Mary, and Barbara. There were three Eli Millers at Maple Grove Mission in
the fifties, and this one was called Mexican Joe’s Eli; the others were Eli J.
and Eli M. In any case, we lost track of
these Millers; they did not attend Maple Grove Mission very long. My father Andrew
wrote in the bulletin regarding our baptism: “We trust they will all remain
faithful to God, and find joy in his service.”
Although this was a spiritual
experience, it was also quite physical, and it was all mixed together. First
there were about six weeks of an instruction classes getting us ready with the
basic beliefs of the Christian faith and of the Mennonites; the Dortrecht
Confession of Faith. One night we went into two groups the boys in the one and
the girls in another one. I don’t know what Mary Stutzman told the girls, but
Harry told us boys about our sexual organs, hormones and having wet dreams (and
not to worry about them), and that we should remain as virgins until marriage.
I often met people as an adult who said they were sexual innocents or
mis-informed about sex or that it was never discussed in their family, church
or community.
I confess I did not know what they were talking about. I learned
a good deal about sex from our animals mating and birthing, then there was our
bathing at home in which I would glimpse my mother and father, certainly no
exhibitionists, but also quite unashamed about their naked bodies. Finally,
there was this kind of sacred teaching by our bishop which was quite common.
Sex was generally considered natural as with the animals, often somewhat humorous
as in our ribald jokes, and also to be directed and controlled by institutions such
as marriage, baptism, instructions and the biblical stories (think King David
and Bathsheba and the Song of Songs).
I got a new suit for the baptism, what we
called a plain coat. We went to Freedlander’s in Wooster and bought a dark suit,
and took the coat up to a Brethren in Christ seamstress in Sippo not far from Massillon
to remove the lapels and convert it into a frock or a straight cut. It was the
only altered straight cut coat I ever owned after we joined the Mennonites. Second,
there was the physical act of our all kneeling on the floor. I remember the
hard wooden floor, Harry asking if I “was truly sorry for my past sins, and
willing to renounce Satan, the world, and all works of darkness, and my own carnal
will and sinful desires.” On hearing me say, “I am” and then promising to
submit to Christ until death, Harry folded his hands into a cup, my father pouring
water into his cupped hands and then Harry rubbed the water on my hair, drops flowing
down the side of my face.
After going down the row like
that with all of us, Harry then started over. He took my right hand saying: “In
the name of Christ and his church, I give you my hand.” “Arise!” he commanded
pulling me up to my feet and continuing: “and as Christ was raised up by the
glory of the Father, even so thou also shalt walk in the newness of life.” There
was more about needing to stay faithful till death, and I “would be
acknowledged as a member of the body of Christ and a brother in the church.” I
now stood face to face with Harry, a short plump man with a little goatee beard
on his chin, and I a gangling thin smooth-faced boy giving each other the right
hand of fellowship and concluding with the kiss of peace, better known in our
church as the holy kiss. We literally kissed each other on the cheek and Harry said
briskly: “God bless you.”
This was all pretty heady and
solemn stuff for a boy of who had just passed his thirteenth birthday on
September 15 and was baptized a week later on September 22. Later in life I discovered
that for an adult believers church such as the Mennonites I may have been
baptized too early. This may be the case, and theoretically at least I’m
committed to adult baptism for Mennonites. But I never really regretted my
baptism, its commitments and grace, except perhaps for a few occasions when I thought
I might be an agnostic. I thought I knew what I was doing and what Christ had
done for me, and I was baptized with my two best friends Paul and Roy who
supported me in the Christian faith the rest of my life. Anyway, it was a scary
summer with our neighbor Paul Coblentz murdered, and we needed all the help and
consolation we could get.
Another important occurrence this
year was my Grandmother Martha Miller’s death in April. For all practical
purposes, this was the end of the Martin and Martha Miller family in our lives
during my growing up years. We had joined the Mennonites, lived at the other
end of the county, and were now active in the Maple Grove Mission, and they had
their own gardens to till. We did not get together for family reunions, and
lived in different worlds. The one exception here was my father’s sister Ida
and her husband Henry Yoder who attended Maple Grove. We knew them very well
during those years and did many things together, but when Maple Gove ended we
never saw them again. We remained Mennonite and their family largely became
part of the Berlin Christian Fellowship and various Pentecostal churches, or as
we used to say “scattered to the four winds.”
In September I began my final
years at Holmesville School, grade 8 with teacher Henry Troyer from Walnut
Creek. Troyer already in his mid-years
loved sports and was quite emotional and affectionate. I had my first love of
history in his class when we studied Ohio history and we did projects of Indian
customs, dress, and artifacts. We built a clay and paper mache Native American settlement
and the Wooster Daily Record ran a
photo in October of 1957, which has us in full Indian headdress and bow and
arrows. In the photo beside me are Roy Snyder, Nancy McCluggage, Jackie
Burkhart, Susie Mast, and Ben Miller. If
Mister Troyer was quite expressive in appreciation, he could also become quite
angry. Henry would go to sleep after lunch, and if someone woke him up or was
walking while he was sleeping, he would fly into a rage and shout at us. We would
tip-toe around so as not wake him or arouse his anger.
I first ran into his emotional
outbursts in sports. Henry was the basketball coach, and wanted me to play on
the team. I could not partly because I was now the main farmer in charge of
milking our cows (conflicting with practice and games), and I suppose some was
also the negativity my father carried regarding sports. In any case, after a
loss of the team one night, when I was already in the seventh grade, Henry visited
our house after dark, and gave my father and mother an angry outburst for not
allowing me to play and that they were the reason why his team lost that night.
I would have liked to play earlier, but after hearing this outburst from the
next room, I lost all interest.
Fortunately, Henry’s hot temper whether from
sleeping or basketball was short-lived and soon forgotten. Aside from
basketball, Henry loved softball too and one time he had my father’s old
teacher Clarence Zuercher’s school come and play us in softball. Another
time the Amish vocational school near Mt. Hope (called Possum College) came to
play us; Monroe Weaver, a neighbor west of Homerville was the teacher. We lost
to both of them. At the end of the game with Zuercher's school, the teacher, now an elderly man, threw his hat in the air and did a somersault.
Finally, before I leave the Holmesville
School there is Roy Stallman, the principal. If ever I felt an educator gave
special attention to our family’s well-being, it was Mister Stallman. But then
I suppose many of the Holmesville families felt the same way. Roy Stallman was a teacher in Holmesville schools for 45 years. From 1953 until he
retired in 1972, he was principal of the Holmesville Elementary School which was during most
of my brothers and sisters’ school spans. Even tempered, serious, and positive,
he encouraged us in our studies and provided a safe environment. He selected several
of us from the seventh and eighth grade to serve as crossing guards at the
school entrance onto the streets, and gave us affirmation for good safety work.
He arranged field trips to the
Cleveland and Columbus Zoo for those who won ribbons in spelling or gained other
academic achievements. During the noon hour he sometimes showed films and in
the winter played records and organized square dancing in the gymnasium. He was
respectful of our cultural and religious diversity such as the Amish and
Mennonite children who were selective in not participating in some of these
activities. But perhaps the main reason I liked him was that I knew my parents also
respected him as a Christian and a community leader. During the summer months,
he did some house painting, as I recall.
I realize today that my
admiration of Roy Stallman was part of my assimilation into more of the
cultural mainstream of American life. About this time, I for the first time became
self-conscious about my Pennsylvania German or Dutch accented English, and made
an effort to speak more English at home or in other settings. Our family had
always been bilingual with the Dutch or Pennsylvania German spoken at home and
English in the school and community, but about now I decided I should speak
English better.
I don’t think it was that some English speaking neighbors made
fun of us Amish and Mennonites for speaking with a Dutch accent, although that
did happen at times. Both at school and the community the Pennsylvania German
was so common that it was simply assumed as a part of the cultural woodwork. Maybe
it was that one of my teachers, I think maybe it was Elsie Snyder, told me that
if I spoke more English, I might do better in English class. Maybe it was in
part that I now thought I would go on to high school. Whatever the reason, I remember
making a conscious choice to use more English and that somehow the English
language was important to my future.
Mattie would drive the car for about eight miles to Mt. Hope in order for Paul to catch a ride with Jacob Miller’s carpentry crew, and then she would go pick him up in the evenings. I sometimes went along and remember the early fog as my mother would drive along slowly. But most of the time, I stayed at home milking the cows and doing the chores; this role had now fallen to me easily because I enjoyed working with the animals.
Then one evening the news came that Andrew had touched the TV antennae of Waive and Vera Boyd’s house, been electrocuted by a shock and had fallen to the ground below. I remember visiting my father in the Pomerene Hospital in Millersburg with his body in traction, attached and pulled by cables and pulleys from the bed posts; he had fractured some vertebrae in his back when he fell. When he came home from the hospital he wore a body cast around his midsection and trunk. I remember it was a warm summer, and we had a wooden back scratcher with which we children used to give him some relief from the itchiness.
The degree to which my father moved to a mystical and Pentecostal Christianity was simply a direction which his children and his wife Mattie could not follow. One might suppose that given his physical condition and no additional medical help in sight, it is quite understandable. Why not appeal to supernatural sources, and there is a healing stream in the Scriptures and Christian history. Anyway, Andrew disappeared, often not showing up for meals and shut up in a dark room, comforted by angels and rebuking demons. He got lots of literature from free-lance evangelists in Tulsa, Oklahoma and Waco Texas.
But looking back after five decades, I don’t think Paul sought this role as much as having it thrust upon him at an early age. And he was not the only one who had additional parent roles given to them. There was my mother Mattie who was the stable leader of home and farm during Andrew’s absence; her stature and influence greatly increased. And there was our employer Jacob S. Miller.
Were these men still hiding somewhere near one of our farms? Even after Eugene Peters and Michael Doumoulin were apprehended in an Illinois hunting cabin, the fear remained for a twelve-year old. This was the first murder I was aware of in Holmes County, and it became a summer of fear. I would look out the upstairs window, and I could not sleep, wondering if some wandering intruders may show up at our farm.
Sadly, Freeman was hugely overweight, had blood clots, and died young. Freeman’s death took on esoteric interest in our community because at the time of his death a Pentecostal movement was emerging in Berlin (sometimes called the Johnny Schrock church). Oral tradition had some of these Pentecostals going to Freeman’s grave site and were trying to raise him from the dead.
I confess I did not know what they were talking about. I learned a good deal about sex from our animals mating and birthing, then there was our bathing at home in which I would glimpse my mother and father, certainly no exhibitionists, but also quite unashamed about their naked bodies. Finally, there was this kind of sacred teaching by our bishop which was quite common. Sex was generally considered natural as with the animals, often somewhat humorous as in our ribald jokes, and also to be directed and controlled by institutions such as marriage, baptism, instructions and the biblical stories (think King David and Bathsheba and the Song of Songs).
Fortunately, Henry’s hot temper whether from sleeping or basketball was short-lived and soon forgotten. Aside from basketball, Henry loved softball too and one time he had my father’s old teacher Clarence Zuercher’s school come and play us in softball. Another time the Amish vocational school near Mt. Hope (called Possum College) came to play us; Monroe Weaver, a neighbor west of Homerville was the teacher. We lost to both of them. At the end of the game with Zuercher's school, the teacher, now an elderly man, threw his hat in the air and did a somersault.
I don’t think it was that some English speaking neighbors made fun of us Amish and Mennonites for speaking with a Dutch accent, although that did happen at times. Both at school and the community the Pennsylvania German was so common that it was simply assumed as a part of the cultural woodwork. Maybe it was that one of my teachers, I think maybe it was Elsie Snyder, told me that if I spoke more English, I might do better in English class. Maybe it was in part that I now thought I would go on to high school. Whatever the reason, I remember making a conscious choice to use more English and that somehow the English language was important to my future.
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